I mean I never really cared for how others viewed me or if they judged me, but recently I realized I’ve been feeling really down. It has been going on for a month now. I don’t know what caused it or how it happen but I’ve just been putting myself down comparing myself to how I use to look. I’ve put on quite a bit of weight since high school. I’m starting to feel sluggish and just a cynic. This has been affecting my relationship along with other things with my life. It stops now. I am going to change myself not for others.. but for myself. I’m not living a healthy lifestyle and it has to stop. I never really rant to the public but I just need to get this out there that shit is gonna turn around. My appearance to myself is not what I want it to be. I use to weigh in at 170 and muscly. Now I’m at 200 and it’s mainly just fat. I have been putting off working out and exercising for too long. Time to get active again. Time to get back my life and who I use to be.